long one

im starting this blog off, with a blanket ALREADY on me and covering my feet LOL

i definately need more coffee though and should have thought to refill my cup before getting comfortable..and letting princess fall asleep on my chest LOL  shes such a cuddle bunny :D  S. and i love it  <3

it may not be a huge thing to some people, to some it may be a common occurance, but you know, S. and i dont go out to breakfast very often, its one of our ways of saving money, annnnd i have no problem whipping up pancakes or cinnamon rolls or eggs, etc on the weekends, i actually really enjoy it.....so when he looked at me on saturday morning, and said..."lets go out to breakfast..."  that was awesome :D  and we had a great breakfast too :)  we went to a local restaurant, and its funny because our old building managers wife works there, and she is absolutely in love with dude ( i mean really, who isnt?  except for k. and her mom LOL that will be explained laterrrr) so we spent a very pleasant morning laughing at dude flirting with her, and she cuddled princess for a while, then as we were leaving dude decided to tell everyone in the resteraunt "merry christmas"...  one at a time....as we were walking past their tables on our way out  lol  <3  its nice to hear "what a nice looking family"  from everyone <3

{{i started this blog monday morning, and i am just now finishing it, thats how crazy this week has been, so no, im not covered in a blanket anymore, but yes princess is cuddling on my chest because she just had lunch, and dude is watching "nightmare before christmas" :) }}

then S. and dude ran a bunch of errands including getting new tires put on the truck :)  i hung out with princess...it was a chill day .... then S. and i spent a while looking at pictures that night :)  we were laughing hysterically <3  we were up for a long time that night, for many reasons ;P

sunday princess was 3 weeks old!!!  ohhh how time flies :D  i did some grocery shopping, then cleaned the house like a whirlwind because . told me when i got home that "santa" would be making an appearance around 4 or so...yeah, you didnt know santa made appointments did you... LOL  and although dude isnt that fond of real santas...he apparently loves real santas that give him chocolate LOL offff couuuurse he does LOL  but he also got a very cool puzzle book and princess got a cute dress :)

ive been spending the week wrapping presents....theres a lot to wrap, and im thinking that the rest is going to be wrapped on christmas eve after dude goes to bed since he hasnt been taking naps..... *sigh* 

other things going on?

dude totally blew up my spot the other day....at supper time, dude and i recount our days activites for daddy, ex: dude tells him what he had for meals, if anyone came to visit, what we watched on tv, why mama put him in time out (LOL) {ive been doing this to work on dudes memory...)  now, i totally let dude watch things he wants to during the day...super why, sesame street, how the grinch stole christmas, etc, but there comes a point when i cant deal anymore, and i tell dude "its mamas turn to watch what she wants"  and yes, sometimes we watch soap operas....so sue me.... well, the other night, S. asked dude what he watched that day....dude said, very clearly, "waaatch...genral hospal"  *sigh*  S. looked at me...i burst out laughing...then explained the situation....whatever....dude and S. will both have to deal with the fact that i watch soaps LOL

im tired of everyone having snow except for us....we got stupid ass freezing rain yesterday.  it sucked.  yes, i find snow annoying when its march or april and we get another foot, but i dont think its too much to ask for, to have a few inches of white stuff on christmas......i know i know, were just never satisfied, either we dont have enough snow, or we just want it gone.

did i make a turkey dinner yesterday? uh yeah.  why the hell not? LOL it was goooooood :D  and i made mashed potatoes with parsnips, oh man, that was a great decision on my part!  S. and dude loved them too!!

missing children make me really sad.  and now that the craziness has made its way here....i think its time to move further into the woods....

we lost power again the other day, i have NO idea why.  but i will tell you that im getting incredibly annoyed with the electric company.  i do not like having to try and start the generator at 8 am, when its friggen freezing cold outside...i mean, it was one of the coldest days that weve had so far this winter, and our power goes out?  apparently it was out all over the place.  then the other night S. and i woke up in the middle of the night to find the power had gone out again!!  the stove had turned off and the house was freezing!!  WTF!!  thank god the power had already come back on and we were able to start the stove up quickly.  all of those conversations that S. and i have had about owning our own house and getting a federal grant to install solar panels is looking more and more like an awesome idea.

i have an appointment to get my hair done tomorrow!!  soooo excited :D

although i love that dude loves his show "super why" and that its obvious that hes learning a lot from it (he loves singing the ABC's and knows at least half of his letters)  i DO NOT like having the theme song to "super why" stuck in my head for hours on end.  thats all i have to say about that.

whats up with the recent moustache craze?  i dont understand it at all. 

i saw the other day, that my blog has had lots of views from RUSSIA of all places....wtf? really?  whatever.  thats cool LOL  but if youre in russia, and reading my blog, send me a message, id be interested to find out what the deal with this is LOL

updates with k. and her mom? 


remember how k. got her tonsils out last month?  her mom tells S. a couple of weeks ago, that there was a tumor in her tonsils, and they tested it, and everything is ok, but the doctor told k.s mom that it was most likely caused by chemicals that S. brought home on his clothes from when he was working with bombs in the Marine Corps.  wow way to go trying to blame S. when he hasnt even seen k. in how long??  didnt your second husband, who was also in the Marine Corps, work with planes? and most likely other chemicals?  wasnt your next boyfriend in the Marine Corps also?  what was his job? when did her tonsils start getting enlarged and needing to be removed?  recently right? yeah.....   then she tells S. that shes telling him about this because she wants him to be careful because she dosnt know what kind of stuff he works with now, and he should be careful because of dude and princess....yeah ok.  how about my children are none of your concern? :)

she also says..."what are you getting k. for christmas?"  S. tells her hes all set with ideas from her, because we already got her some things....she says..."oh ok because i had a really good idea for something for you to get her...but i forgot..."   way to go making yourself look stupid and wasting our time on an absolutely pointless part of a conversation.

she asks what we got for k., because k. is in her custody and she, as the mom, has the last say on what k. gets to have...we tell her "dont worry about it"  she tells S. that shes going to open up the presents before k. sees them so that if theres anything in there that she, the mom, dosnt like, k. wont get it.  how awesome is that?  does she think we sent k. some deer meat or something?  what a bitch.

k. is now acting like a snot to dude as well as her father.  this past sunday she said to dude "why do you always want to talk to me?"  niiiice.  great manners.  be a snot to your little brother who is totally blameless in this situation, and who gets totally excited about talking to you.  im thinking ill stop asking dude if he wants to talk to k., theres no reason for it anyway, not until theyre older at least.

we got a package the other day from k. full of presents for S. and dude and princess.....my thoughts?  my kids wont be getting those presents, theyll be donated somewhere....theres no reason for them to have things that im sure k. didnt even pick out herself...they can exchange presents when they get older, if they want to, when they know the whole situation.....

thats it for now....maybe i should eat some lunch?  ehhhhh i guess so....hopefully S. actually gets to leave work early today!!  yeah for christmas vacation!!  :D  were so excited to see everyone, and have our tree with our kids!!  :D


Cold Feet

cold feet suck.

i got up with princess a little while ago, put S.s sweatpants on and came downstairs to give her a bottle and a diaper change.....and in my still-asleep-blur, i completely forgot that usually the hardwood floors downstairs are pretty cold at 4:45 am, whether or not the stove has been roaring all night long......soooooo.....princess is passed out on my chest (yes i CAN write a blog while a baby sleeps on me LOL) and i mean majorly passed out, so i dont want to move to get a blanket.....now the top half of me is like being in a furnace, and i have my feet tucked up under me trying to warm them and im even eyeballing the burp cloth wondering if it will give off any sort of warmth......maybe this laptop sitting on my lap will spread some warmth downwards towards my feet...i can only hope.   now i know what S. is complaining about every night when i put my feet on him when we get into bed LOL :D

f**k it im getting a blanket......


now on to the important stuff :)

S. and i are so friggen excted for christmas its unbelievable!!!!   seriously, we strolled around, debating for at least 2 hours yesterday (and of course weve been debating for at least a month now) trying to find the perfect "santa" present for dude....it was intense   lol not really...  but we finally agreed on something, i distracted dude by taking him to another part of the store, and when he was asking for daddy, well, i told him that daddy had to go have a conversation with santa lol :)  and S. went and bought this HUGE ASS firetruck with all of the bells and whistles - i dont even know how im going to wrap it -  its big enough for him to ride on - and we cant wait to see dudes eyes light up <3  i was organizing presents last night, and these kids are going to make out like bandits LOL

S. and i got even MORE good news on thursday!!!!!  talk about karma!!!  :D

i think im going to avoid walmart like the plague for the next week......talk about "shoot myself in the foot" ridiculously packed with friggen annoying and rude people.....ugh....

may i have been one of those people at one point?  yeah, i would like to think "no"   but i do know that there were times that the four of us were blocking the aisle for some reason or another, or i was standing, looking at toys and baby clothes, and my eyes were so glazed over from all of the overstimulation of the christmas on steroids decorations and music that i didnt notice for a few seconds that someone was trying to get past me/us.... so if i was one of those "friggen annoying and rude people" to any of you, im sorry and im also sorry for being a little bit of a hypocrite LOL  tis the season LOL

im going to try and get my hair done before christmas! :) 

the kids are doing great...im pretty sure dude is getting bigger every day :)  and princess has been sleeping through the night for the past couple of weeks now :)  S. and i are always telling each other we have beautiful, awesome kids <3 <3 <3

the other day S. laughed at me when i told him... "listen, you think i dont have enough to do around here?  you think i have time to turn your socks right side out when im folding clothes AND match them too?  so, from now on, if you dont turn your socks right side out when you take them off, theyre going to get washed and then im throwing them back into your sock drawer, just like that, im not even going to match them.  seriously."  he was laughing so hard by the time i was done with this spiel, i mean, i was saying it with a smile on my face, and laughing, not freaking out on him at all LOL.....well have to see if he takes me seriously...
because im very serious LOL :D  i love him <3

i just somehow managed to feed the cats while still holding princess, and shes still sleeping.....im kind of impressed with myself...why did i suddenly have to feed the cats?  because i hadnt realized that there was no food is their dish until i took away the package of cat treats that tulah/tuna was dragging across the floor and trying to open up *sigh*

i think im done for now....

i also think im going to have to go so i can deal with tulah, who is now trying to rip the gold garland off of our tree....WTF cat??  just because im up, dosnt mean you have to go crazy ape shit all over the house....both cats are running back and forth from the tree to the stairs, at top speed, so that its incredibly loud and if this wakes dude up im going to be annoyed.

but, this is slightly (not a lot) better than when dude is running at top speed from the tree, to the dining room, to the bathroom, while screaming at the top of his lungs, because, you know, thats the thing to do right before bedtime.  S. loves this, seriously, loves when dude does this.....i dont understand it, but i love that S. loves it <3 and you know, when dude stops, and smiles at me, i cant help but smile back at him and love it too :) <3

pancakes for breakfast?
helllllll yeahhhh.....

<3 <3 <3


Lazy Day....

is there such a thing when you have a 2 year old and a newborn? 
 um...yeah, yeah there is LOL

especially when your newborn sleeps all the time, and your 2 year old will sit in the dining room and amuse himself for the 20 minutes that youre in the shower :D  gotta love it!!  soooo....there was a nice long hot shower for me....dude and i got dressed for the day (princess is still sleeping, so shell get changed later) and now dude is watching "super why"  he friggen LOVES this show!!  like, L.O.V.E.S it with a passion LOL  but hes so awesome at his letters and sometimes he points out letters to us and says "super why"  like  "T!!  SUPER WHY!!"  so its obvious that hes learning about letters on the show.....soooo yeahhhh i put up with it....the show i DONT put up with??  "sid the science kid"  god  that show annoys the hell out of me!!

things have been chill around here :)

sunday S. and i left the kids with my parents, then took the 4wheeler down to my parents camp and found a christmas tree! :)  it was fun being out with just S., even though it was COLD!! then we ran to walmart for a few things, including some more christmas presents...but it was reallllly quick, cause i wasnt feeling that good...but im all better now :)  got home, S. called k., {{surprise surprise they had gone to spend the weekend in raleigh to go christmas shopping...i wonder if she (k.s mom) brought her current boyfriend along...like she brought her boyfriend of the month last christmas season too   LOL its kinda sad that her grandmother is such an enabler that she will pay for hotel rooms for her and whatever guys she happens to be dating that month.....}}  then S. did some work outside, and then he and dude put the tree up, and we all decorated it (well, princess "supervised") :D  S. was really cute wearing reindeer horns and hanging lights <3 :D 

something that is seriously concerning S. and i though?  whenever S. asks k. about her moms new boyfriend....she gets reallllly quiet, sounds sad, refuses to talk about him, has to be coached to talk (we can hear people telling her things in the background) and it causes an all around uneasy feeling in mine and S.s guts.....thats not good.  especially after she just spent a long weekend (over thanksgiving) with her mom and her moms new boyfriend, and k. has nothing good to say about it or him.....at one point k. told S. she dosnt like the new boyfriend, so S. asked her "why?"  then we could hear people talking to her in the background, then k. proceeds to tell S. that shes just joking, but shes not laughing at all....hmmmm.  *uneasy feelings in our guts grows* 

(and k.s mom claims that i try to get involved in k.s and S. conversations? yeah, ok. )

there has been lots and lots of celebrating at our house lately :D

im totally craving some chicken alfredo.....

and i think im going to make gingerbread men later today :D

ohhhh goooooood.....dinosaur train is on.......but you see, this is what dude and i do....we compromise (he recently learned this word).....he gets to watch a few shows that he wants, then its mamas turn :)  yes, my son has watched law and order SVU    LOL   and now he loves nightmare before christmas too :)  just like daddy <3  

our new favorite game to play with dude?  we "take" his nose and put it in our pocket LOL he laughs hysterically, but then gets kind of distressed .... is this a little mean because were laughing the whole time? yeah maybe, but its seriously funny LOL hes started "taking" our noses and putting them in his pocket :)  this is the game for the supper table every night <3  annnnd my son will occasionally look at me, out of the blue, and tell me im a booger LOL  <3

princess is doing great!!  shes so sweet :D  and almost back to her birth weight, only a couple more ounces to gain, but its obvious that shes putting on weight, and her face is rounding out <3  shes more alert now when shes awake, and dosnt fall asleep as soon as shes done eating :)  we had to start her on formula, because like when i was breastfeeding dude....my body just dosnt like it, and stopped producing enough milk...oh well, a couple of weeks breastfeeding is better than not at all :)  the drawback?  formula scented burps...gross LOL

something i love?  sleepy milk drunk face LOL  im sure you all know what im talking about :D

and even though i know its just gas, it still makes me smile when she smiles in her sleep <3

i found some t shirts on etsy of a lumberjack punching a bear, and im thinking about getting one for S. for christmas LOl and i want to message the guy and see if i can get a shirt of a princess punching a unicorn LOL i think that would be funnnnny LOL :D

alrrriiiiightt time to go :)  i think dinosaur train is almost over  LOL and i want to start a load of laundry before princess wakes up :) 

<3 <3 <3


an all around update

first and foremost...im laying on my stomach to write this LOL
what fun!!

life is awesome!!

of course princess was born, dude is doing awesome with the whole "little sister" thing :)  sometimes he calls her a lazy bum like i do, sometimes he calls her princess like daddy does <3  he asks to hold her all the time, gives her kisses, and cuddles next to her on the couch...
the other day i looked over and he was holding her hand while he was watching "how the grinch stole christmas"

after she was born, and we saw dude after he spent the night with my parents, he looked so big!! 
i swear it was hilarious!!  were pretty sure he grew a lot in those 24 hours!  and changing his diaper is hilarious because his little butt looks so huge compared to princess' LOL :D

the whole sleep deprivation thing? 
well, obviously im used to it, because even though dude sleeps through the night, now if i have to get up with princess, im ok the next day...that works out very well!

S. got a new job!!  hes so excited about it and he starts right after christmas!! 
were talking about moving into a different apartment soon too!!

were talking a lot about buying a piece of land and building a yurt!
yes im serious! 
we were talking to our neighbors about it, they used to live in one, and they showed us some pictures, and were seriously talking about it :) 

the house looks really funny with so much pink spread all around it now :D

S. and i moved dudes toy box into the dining room today because it was in the corner where we want to put our christmas tree tomorrow.....wow was that a chore!! 
we were both laughing the whole time because i guess we didnt really realize how many toys he has!

so yes, getting our christmas tree tomorrow....im very excited about it! 
and although it will be nice to not have to tromp through a couple of feet of snow, in the woods, up to my parents house...its also kind of annoying in a way....i mean, i keep looking out the window and thinking that i still have lots of time to prepare for christmas, because it dosnt feel like christmas with no snow on the ground....then i look at the calendar, and hyperventilate just a little LOL 
its not like we have a lot to do, but still....
you know?

it was funny when i realized the other day that this year well actually have to keep all the presents hidden until christmas eve...because dude would open up everything as soon as it was put under the tree LOL  annnnd there will most likely be lots of paper and other soft type ornaments on the tree this year, not just because of dude...but also because im pretty sure that at some point tulah will be climbing the tree....

and actually, no, i dont like christmas music.

S. and i have both been working really hard on our business, hes been turning wood mallets on his lathe to sell on ebay, and ive been knitting like crazy for my shop on etsy, and its coming along really well :)

annnnnd i guess thats mostly it for now.....
life is really good :D 

<3 <3 <3

"Princess" 11.27.11

welcome to the world little girl!! 
born on sunday 11.27.11 at 4:41 am
(yes i just said A.M., im still trying to catch up on my sleep from THAT one lol!!)

wow, S. and i had been saying for MONTHS that our daughter was most likely going to be born thanksgiving weekend....did we ACTually think it would happen??  i dont think soooo...

but it was pretty cool that it did :D

we had a check up on friday the 25th and the doctor told me i was a couple centimeters dialated, i had been having contractions off and on for a few days at that point...so.....S. and i decided that it WAS going to happen that weekend LOL

saturday there was lots of standing...you know, gravity and all LOL, then S. put LOTS of jalapenos on the sandwich that he made for me for lunch (which i love jalapenos and asked for them!)  thennnnnn.....we put dude down for a nap ;P  i was having contractions but they werent regular in any way, i took a nap on the couch, then we went to bed arouuuuundddd....10?  by 11 i was up again and had gone downstairs because my contractions were about 20 minutes apart and WICKed strong!!   i woke S. up around midnight, called the maternity ward, called my parents, texted S.s parents....then waited for mom and dad to show up so dad could watch dude (mom was coming with us)....

S. was so awesome....i was pacing back and forth, trying to not punch things during my contractions, he kept talking to me to distract me, packed our bag for the hospital (yeah, we waited until last minute :P) , held my hand, told me how beautiful i was, and the best thing i heard..."i would do this part for you if i could..."  <3

we all finally got to the hospital around...1:30 or so, and S. and my mom and the ER attendant ran behind me as i waddled/ran/ breathed heavily towards the elevator (the attendant with the ever helpful, there if i need it wheelchair LOL)  as soon as we got to the maternity ward, they got me into a room (they knew we were coming) and we found out that apparently, that night, was verrry popular with the prego ladies, the maternity ward was packed!  sooo, S. helped me get undressed (oh, haha....) we found out i was already about 6 centimeters, i got some drrruuuuuggggsss!!! :D  just some nubane (sp?) in my hand until they could get the anesthesiologist there (of course he was busy with all the other women lol) but it helped, but what helped the most was S. and my mom :)  we were talking about random stuff (yurts mostly LOL) and S. very bravely let me hold his hand through all of my contractions! <3  i actually ended up wrinkling his shirt A LOT because i kept grapping the neck of his shirt too LOL when i was 8 centimeters, the anesthesiologist showed up, and gave me an intrathecal (sp?) its a lighter dosage basically of an epidural, i had the same thing with dude and really liked it.  and although ive forgotten his name, i admit, i told him i loved him...a lot....S. laughed :D so did the anesthesiologist hehe :D  i dont remember a whole lot of stuff that was talked about at this point..i remember laughing hysterically and telling everyone that it was really funny that my butt was numb lol S. and mom were laughing at me a lot because i kept talking about how my butt was numb...then i got the shakes, which was very annoying, but its what happens....at 9 centimeters, the doctor broke my water, i started pushing around 4:15, 4:20 or so, and the really annoying thing?  anybody remember how much ive complained about acid reflux during my pregnancy? yeah well, it got a million times WORSE while i was pushing...i mean...What The F**k?????  it was miserable....im pretty sure thats why i was able to get princess out in about 20 minutes LOL because i was just...Done. (and although she was born with a full head of hair, im pretty sure that she should have had a freaking ponytail with all of the acid reflux i had LOL!!)  S. counted for me, gave me sips of water in between pushes, mom was yelling at me the whole time LOL in a good way of course LOL :D  and S. continued to tell me how beautiful i was, and what a good job i was doing, and how proud he was of me..... and like i said, princess was out of there LOL

i would tell you all about the emotions running rampant in the delivery room at that moment,
but S. says i cant LOL 

they put her on my chest, and S. cut the cord, and then there was LOTS of cuddling and picture taking <3

my mom called dad, S. went with princess to the nursery, there were more pictures, it was all a blur...

the three of us got put into a room (they needed the delivery room i was in for ANOTHer woman who was coming in, seriously it was a busy night for the maternity nurses!!)  mom had left earlier to get dad and dude, and the three of them came so dude could meet his sister :D  <3  although he handled it VERY well, he was much more concerned and focused on the fact that i had an I.V. in and mom told me that this was all he talked about all day and night and even the next day... :(    but he gave her kisses, there were more pictures, then the three of them left (mom and dad took dude for the night since we were going to be in the hospital) thennnn...S. and i slept.. LOL

that night S. let me sleep some more, and when we werent snuggled up in the incredibly small hospital bed, he was pushing princess around the maternity ward in her cradle, and taking her to get her hearing test, and taking pictures, and more pictures, and yes...more pictures LOL i told him, ive NEVER seen him so camera happy LOL <3

S. took the day off monday, and we decided to come home since the doctor cleared princess, and my doctor cleared me (i had no complications whatsoever, meaning NO problems...do you get what im hinting at?a LOL)  and honestly, i wanted to be home, under my own roof, with my family :) so after some visits from family, and S. getting me flowers and balloons from the gift shop, and a couple more hospital meals, a shower, and lots and lots of paperwork, we went home <3

since then.....well, princess is now almost 2 weeks old, and even though she of course lost some weight, being a breastfed baby and all, she is gaining it back, she sleeps allllllll the time...to the point where ive asked people if its normal....because even though i remember lots of stuff about dude being a Baby, after running around after his energetic ass for the last year....both S. and i kinda forgot that princess wouldnt be running around also LOL :D  and S., the big tough Marine?  well, lets just say that i finally understand the phrase "wrapped around her finger" because he is a big mush ball with our daughter LOL hes the sweetest, most wonderful man, has been so helpful, and honestly, sometimes, ive had to say to him... "can i hold her now?"  he worried like crazy about her umbilical cord and he calls her "princess" so much, THATS where her nickname came from LOL  weve been taking turns with bottles, and diaper changes, cuddling (both) our babies, playing hardcore with dude, and the cats LOL....

S., at this moment is playing a video game while princess is sleeping on his chest, he just fed her a bottle after putting dude to bed <3 annnnddd she just spit up all over his chest....and he laughed about it <3 

and my heart swells up with love for him and our children <3

family life may not always be easy,
but its still perfect
<3 <3 <3